Lonely hearts, shattered dreams. There's nothing better in this place... [20 Jun 2002|01:53pm] [ mood | excited ] Long time no update. Well, yesterday, I talked to Candice. I think I'm really starting to like her again. She's so cute, and so funny. She's just...adorable. I can't help but start to love her again. She's all I ever want, and all I'll ever need. She's just perfect to me. :) Well yeah. There's nothing else to talk about. Later. I LOVE YOU CANDICE <3333333333333333333333333333333333 kill me

open wounds,still breathing... you're my everything [20 Jun 2002|01:53pm] umyeah candice is updating for me... i'm quite scared lets see what becomes of this.. later kill me

for all i care shes hot and shes a real good ride [13 Jun 2002|09:11pm] [ mood | hopeful ] I BROKE MY FUCKING ANKLE AND IM GOING INSANE. i was playing basketball and i went for the shto got it in when i came down from the jump my foot must have lost balance cuz my foot when like this= /. and the bone almost popped out, its the size of fucking texas and it hurts like a bitch. i had to go to my orthapedic today. i got a black cast. hah, fun stuff. and my crutches are killing me i got a bruise its fucking huge. its horrible. well anyway i really dont think im with krystina no more... i dont really want to be anymore, me and her should have just stayed best friends. i want a irl girl, and the one i want is either marina but shes wiht justin or shannon. i dont know. well im out, im gonna go find something to do maybe tryand beat gta3. later chris why do I beg like a child for your candy why do I come after you like i do i love you whatever you are i swear youll be my angel kill me

lol. [10 Jun 2002|10:14pm] For shame! You post quiz results once in a while, either because you like the graphics and think other will too, or because you're a sheep and your friends do it to. Nobody cares if you got "strawberry" or "Rainbow Brite"...Just stick to what's important in your life. I took the LJ rating test by Atomic Blue and Cracker Face! me

its not a surprise you've been with other guys [09 Jun 2002|11:16pm] [ mood | annoyed ] softest: yo drawbridges: yo. softest: you got any aims you up for trading? drawbridges: who is this? softest: you probably dont know me, i was just looking for some nice names, and someone told me yours.. softest: what other names do you have besides that? drawbridges: i only have this one and throw fetus, but i think you can help me out. softest: i'll give you this for that? softest: i'm so sick of this :-( softest: had it 4ever.. softest: and I don't like it. drawbridges: see now, my friend qwfc, made a trade with my friend gina the sn disgusted for bandanna, and the person never gave gina the pw nor when she did was it right. softest: what does that have to do with me? drawbridges: and now i'm not going to trade you becuz it seems quite fishy. drawbridges: that for the past 2 days softest: what? drawbridges: ive been asked the same question by people but each time they r on a different sn. softest: i've never spoken to you before. softest: .... drawbridges: whats your name. softest: i got your name from the screename 'dictator' softest: my names mike.. softest: yours? drawbridges: chris. drawbridges: mike as in lerk? softest: no.. softest: mike as in swat.. drawbridges: ah. then i dont know u. softest: i said you didn't... drawbridges: okay, well im not gunna be the niave one and make a trade with someone i dont know. softest: alright, not my loss, bye. drawbridges: later. lmao, i love how dumb people are. friday i went to the mall and then at 8 arty picked me will libby and chris up to drink, and we got back at 1030, and we were wasted. i was fucking gone and everyone was mad at me or whatever and i threatened this kid, i said ill hang u by your intestines slit your throat and think nothing of it cuz no1 cares. :] i have low tolerance for people, anyway saturday i went to adventure land and jimmy was there and he had 3 beers and a half a beer so we went to drink and then we rode the new ride it was fucking crazy, and we saw pj josh and christine [yes sadly my cousin] with her people. i didn't stay around them for too long, well then i went back to jimmys to drink more, and i was once again wasted, and ive been wearing the same clothes for 2 days and i havent showered or brushed my hair in 3 days. i feel like a dirtbag, but oh well. ill shower tomorrow morning or night or both. oh well, onto the aol nonsense, meag is gone till tuesday :[ i miss her imma email her tomorrow, but eh me and katie still arent talking, me and steph are sorta starting to talk more again, krystina is still never on and it just leads me to suspect more things but oh well, "hate to say i told you so" that shall be meags words when i come complaining to her. hah well i'm off to bed, au revoir. -chris i guess i should have realized that ive just been wasting my time on a one way train to nowhere and it doesn't make a difference cause i dont really care what he had to say to you, or why he has such a narrow point of view on the world or a firmly taken stand against me so just take his hand and go off to a better place with him im convinced that im never gonna win ive tried so hard with no success what am i doing different than the rest now you'll learn to live and die by him ill go out on a limb and say that you will never be mine i guess it's no surprise that you're out seeing other guys when we both know that youre just trying to pretend like nothing's wrong stop trying to forget your past how can you turn your back so fast? i guess ill never understand so just take his hand - something corporate - "you're gone" kill me

inside i know i'll feel much better when you're really gone [05 Jun 2002|11:54pm] [ mood | amused ] eternal goodbyes: guess what i'm eating drawbridges: steph. eternal goodbyes: ROFL eternal goodbyes: close but no cigar eternal goodbyes: TUNA eternal goodbyes: ok ok eternal goodbyes: yes, steph ;x drawbridges: LMAO! eternal goodbyes: tuna aka steph drawbridges: i knew it. eternal goodbyes: :o eternal goodbyes: she's eternal goodbyes: quite fishy tasting drawbridges: not suprising drawbridges: thats whack eternal goodbyes: yea i guess jeff ;x drawbridges: tobacco is whack if your jeff. drawbridges: whacko eternal goodbyes: YAH YAH JEFF ------------------------------ drawbridges: meag, i heard u rip ass like a man. eternal goodbyes: yeah yeah i know. eternal goodbyes: oh you did? eternal goodbyes: well it's true drawbridges: i know. eternal goodbyes: still wanna be my friend? drawbridges: yeah drawbridges: we can have contests eternal goodbyes: i rip ass like a man, i look like a man, i burp like a man, i talk like a man, DAMMIT, i am a man. [without a dick plus a pussy] eternal goodbyes: ALRIGHT eternal goodbyes: and i'll beat your ass drawbridges: wow. drawbridges: yeah okay i rip ass like noother eternal goodbyes: well eternal goodbyes: i'm sorry hun eternal goodbyes: mines louder + stinkier + gushier drawbridges: eck eternal goodbyes: LMAO eternal goodbyes: yea, very eternal goodbyes: you know you find it utterly sexy drawbridges: well since jeff has to go now drawbridges: we should stop the chit chat. drawbridges: :-X drawbridges: yes i love it when u rip ass in my face im gonna show you now, this time i'm getting out ive said it many times, but this time i have figured out just how i'm moving on, it's taken way too long inside i know i'll feel much better, when you're really gone that made me think of something :] kill me

i love flaw [05 Jun 2002|11:48pm] What makes me think that it'll all work out in the end Afraid to feel bad, better off to try and pretend I'm immortal, immune to all that is wrong Just keep on wishing, crossing my fingers so long Is this helping, I'm growing weaker each day Can't stop whining, still afraid of what I might say Or reactions, that control us one and all It's mine, it's pure and, as decent as I can make myself Inside, we all know, only the strong survive Why don't you think about that So now I'm bleeding, on myself yes once again Seems I trusted another deceitful friend, my Fault should've known the deal Keep your friends close, but your enemy's closer for real Seems easy, but nothing could be so hard Trying to guess life's dealing what's the next card I'm surely folding, I don't like this hand at all Keep those eyes wide open, here comes a blind side Maybe things happen for a reason, and wherein lies the answer To overcome the grieving, of life's unruly lessons I'm handed in succession, it builds my pain which makes me strong Why don't you think about that - only the strong Maybe noboday told you about this life Maybe nobody answered your questions why Simple revelations, they come in tine Those liars told us things would all be fine Born out of whack, give him something possible, you thought it would've mattered Not likely to change things, we've come too far Where innocent young kids are put behind bars But it's an easy decisionm banished so far You're not as civil as you think you are (Chorus) You say we're all all born out of whack Well, don't act so suprised now, there's been a lot going on Since you realized that we're all just kids trying to get along So answer one thing Are you gonna stay inside, are you gonna stay inside our minds? Are we all born wrong? -out of whack So Maybe I am Bound By Fate A Problematic Scarring Induced By Hate It Never Seems To All Pan Out Is That What All This Teaching Is Needed To Scout You Seemed To Have A Bad Effect Your Rules And Contradictions I would Neglect Though Not My Fault You Made Me Feel Like My Own Education Wasnt Truly Real Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal I`m Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole So There I Stood A Scolded Child The Reasons Never Questioned My Pains Been Filed Inside This Place That Makes Me Feel I learned Life Is Unfair And That Is Very Real Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal I`m Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole While You Try To Overcome The Lesson Makeing The most Of Those Questions That Just Keeps Me Guessing I`m Looking Longer, Harder, Further Than I Ever Have Solitude Breaking Me Down You Always Seemed Glad To Put Me down And Stick Me In That little Pit Personal Growth As A child That Mattered Not A Bit Then I Became The Person That You Hated Most Disrespecting The Father, Son, And Holy Ghost A Small Example Of What The Things You`ve Done To Me Have Changed In My Life And Changed The Things that I can never be I`ll Never Be -whole There's another reflection involved up in my mind A wholeness that has just been lost Striving hard for perfection but still nothing to find Some value with a cheaper cost And as I reach out to hear you the sound is so muffled It makes a lesser man of me So the only thing left to bring up to date is You suck! Watch me fall while I go down I'm taking all you bastards to the ground with me then I'll frown On your fucking whole life The systematic hype still means a bit much to me I'm at the point of retraction and still slipping further This place is getting worse for me There's such a lack of direction and models to live by No bright skies ahead of me And as I reach out for your hand you turn and then wander Why I simply just can't see No separation of gender no difference in me You're just leading me on and on and on You lead me on and on and on and on (chorus) Pretty soon it's gonna come back and be your turn Pretty soon you're gonna be the one that burns (chorus) Your turn now -payback This is my letter to you. We started following a certain description. We started simple and fair, once again. Before there wasn't any need for an answer. Things were much different then but, Now you question who i am, who i am inside. Now there's nothing left to hide. So here it goes, this is my letter. Hope you're alright, it's been rough for me. Thinking all night, about the places I'd be, if i maybe just did a little bit more, you might have let me become a man for sure. And if i might, express one concern. It seems an issue, all day in every turn. What's the next step? The latest hole in my life? What's next for me to learn? What's next for me to learn? Engulf myself into a permanent mystery. No one day just as the next, not for me. It's so confusing when i look at my history. I just can't handle that yet, no. Now you question who i am, who i am inside. Now there's nothing left to hide. So here it goes, this is my letter. Hope you're alright, it's been rough for me. Thinking all night, about the places I'd be, if i maybe, still lived for more, you might of let me, become a man for sure. And if i might, express one concern. It seems an issue, all day in every turn. What's the next step? Who lays trouble in my life? What's next for me to learn? One more friendship ends. And then for a while, i can breath again. Hope you're alright, it's been rough for me. Thinking all night, about the places I'd be, if i maybe, still lived for more, you might of let me, become a man for sure. And if i might, express one concern. It seems an issue, all day in every turn. What's the next step? Who lays trouble in my life? What's next for me to learn? What's next for me to learn? -my letter. Well it seems as though, everyone's been led astray far away from From what we know, still can't fins a reason or the right words to say, it'll be ok Wrapped up in all the things that are wrong It's the only trial so far, as the verdict falls down you still break away Caught up in a social degradation, you can't even see the truth We're only half as good at personal relations, look around and see the proof Only a few of us go in the right direction, even though we're singled out It's the only thing that keeps me alive, i do what i have to do How was i to know, force fed corporate trials each day, every single day But we must grow, echoing the single most thing in the way (Chorus) Not slipping, drifting, falling, one step further from the norm, what is the norm Not living, longing, trying so much harder than before What if i, what if i, run far away Would i still be seen the same, break away (Chorus) It's what I want -what i have to do There must be something you can recommend. I've lost my faith in man again So sick of trying to pretend. Same pain over and over again How much longer do you think we'll stand. So little left here to live for By the time my life is at its end. I'll want it back One more time Let me try one more time. Live my life one more time We never seem ready for this It keeps on. It keeps on It keeps on haunting me day after day. Am I going about things the right way Which thruth's to pass and with which thruth's to say It's all so hard I'm just so damn afraid Had about as much as I can take. So little left here to live for By the time my life is at its end. I'll want it back (chorus) I need the chance to live my life one more time Give me the chance to live my life one more time -one more time Here we go again A very temperamental process, beginning with all of our excess Affecting our very own ingest, this side of you is speechless Overwhelmed with an abscess, creating new diseases And infecting whomever it pleases, we've been living this way for too long, too long Then I noticed a difference, in the way that I saw other insects Who were living a life of indulgence, sheltered by their parents Such an unlucky existence, not given a chance to experience And make their own decisions, I wouldn't trade my own mistakes at all Reach out your hands Out for the ones who, aid when the going gets rough Until the end. These are the ones who, help when the times get tough And times will get tough. Get up again. Get up again Here it comes once again -get up again So you think the area's gray, but it continues each day A bad example of the attitude you portray Act like i owe you my life, you should be burdened with strife Can't find a single reason i could live with you as my wife So i continue to pray, and hope that you'll go away A bad addiction to a home wrecking thing who plays With my heart, and that's the bottom line I feel so empty What can you give me, i can't give myself And what part of my life can you fix, that i can't fix my damn self God i'm losing patience each day, i've put myself in harms way Can't seem to justify none of the shit you say Can't find another way out, there's nothing left but pure doubt I'm on the verge of pulling my hair straight out So if you listen to me, not to the powers that be We're not supposed to be together can't you see Indecision is the bottom line, i feel so empty now (Chorus) I'm gonna show you now, this time i'm getting out I've said it many times, but this time i have figured out Just how i'm moving on, it's taken way too long Inside i know i'll feel much better, when you're really gone -reliance Here we sit, all alone in an outnumbered fight Led to decipher between wrong and right And some may fail, at this joke that some of us call life Yes at this game that some call life But the system can't bail me out of hell I've made this discovery and it has helped All i've got is myself, i have faith in that Believe and one day, you'll do just as well now As you were, you little puppet, you pauper, you freak, that's right That's what some of them have said to me So i object, and try to figure things out for myself I'm building up full emotional wealth (Chorus) The inner strength, is what the hate, it wants us not to feel It's time that we helped, there's no room to fail You already know the way out of hell All we got is ourselves, i have faith in that Believe and one day We'll put the system in jail, we'll put the system in jail I made it through, scraped black and blue But so can you, I made it through, so black and blue But you can too, I made it though scraped black and blue But so can you, i've made it through We'll all make it through -inner strength It woke up in me years ago, how this was meant to me All of those falsehoods plain to see, they dug and hung their greed Will there be profit you could see, if only we were blind Lonely and sheltered, your life is free but it's still one step behind Just like me, they tried their rules on me They tried their rules on me They tried their rules on me, me, me I broke those chains and fucking split And so you, and so you, and so you, and so you Pass all the facist asses, ignore those classes, of bottleneck masses Producing an all but awful stench, Delivering a section of all the money stole and spent As you start to recognize, you're in the game Growning afflictions head to toe, this never should have been But placing blame is cowardly, restructure must begin Will there be profit you could see, if only we were blind Lonely and sheltered your life is free, but it's still one step behind (Chorus) Yes and the playing board is you............ -scheme amazing :D kill me

i wanna be a high school football hero [05 Jun 2002|04:58pm] [ mood | amused ] 14 I act like I'm 14. This test was brought to you by David - Part of the David and James phenomenon. Take it here. im a year older, lol theres no difference.. hm, i talked to krystina last night and it was great :D. and katie makes me mad. fucking fat ass. "lets discuss jeff's personal life in my journal i guess he wont care cuz we're not friends" fucking whorebag, i hate your gut im gunna make u my jew, and starve you and when youre worthless ill put u in the gas chamber then into the oven stupid bitch. anyway, i got an award today, MVP of the basketball team fool i got a plaque and shit and this kid chris wilder was like i hate chris hate hate the coach i hate everything chris shouldnt have won i should have!!. having a fucking hissy fit dude, seriously get over it YOU LOST. kid fucking has more turn overs in a game than he scores -smh-. and when i went up to get my awaard i gave my coach, my principle and my asst. prinicple the fucking famous executive handshake. this weekend im going to adventure land, and the mall. im gunna have some fun. my dad is in some golf tournament. and then he has the PGA US OPEN. hes gunna be so proud, im gonna make him so proud with my mvp plaque hanging on my wall. bring a fucking tear to his eye. he'll be all "that's my boy -tear" :x hm well im gunna go and talk to meag and myra now. later. chris i love krystina to all the cool people: steph<333 meag<333 myra<333 steff<333 everyone else. :x later "ive left my mark ive made my statement i won't go unnoticed past this day my person ideals a building block for this world never again will i sit in silence as many sit by and watch our world pass by i refuse to take my seat"- ptw kill me

LIVEJOURNAL CAN FUCKING SUCK MY DICK [02 Jun 2002|10:47pm] [ mood | sleepy ] do you know how much trouble i just had getting to this? fuck lj is gay... onward to my party i went to a party got drunk had 4 screwdrivers, 2 1/2 cans of bud and i shared a "spiked" sprite with anita, it was pretty hard because it was mostly vodka. :D so it was even better, wll hen i got online and i was talking to people and myra called me and we were talking till like 2ish? and then i passed out on my bed with no blanket and only pants on and my room is air conditioned iwas freezing by morning andi woke up with a big ass hang over but i went out with marissa and we hung out in town and we had 19$ and we needed another dollar we coulda gotten a dime bag.:[ but then marissa felt sick so i called my dad and he took her home then i went home and chilled with dan, and theni got online, andas u all know me and katie are no longer friends,thank fucking god, i finally got away from her, no more aodrama :D. well i gotta go cuz i got school in the morning, so ill see u later... later chris meag<333 I UPDATED FOR YOU, i love you, bestfriends4e<33 krystina, i love you<333333 kill me

i won't tell anyone why you wear sweaters when its hot [01 Jun 2002|01:23pm] [ mood | satisfied ] drawbridges: aim likes it up the ass cherishings: Rofl. So do I ;-) lmao@at thatjcpe well, last night i went to the pop disaster tour ;D BLINK 182 FUCKING SUCKED. green day and std were the whole fucking show... and they randomly selected 3 people from the audience and they had to know how to play the instuments [bass,guitar,and drums] and they got to play some music, if i was closer i probably coulda had a chance but oh well im not gunna cry about it. jcpenny went out fire, it got struck by lightning, i got 2 nice pictures of lightning.. and this guy goes to me "what if i told u i caused this storm" i was like " i wouldnt believe you " and hes like " well i did and i casted a spell and it should stop at the crack of dawn" so i stayed up alll night and it was true it stopped right at the ass crack of dawn. and you know noaxstradamius or whatever, the fucker who predicted the twin towers were going down, it turns out he got lucky with that and the rest of his predictions were shit he was a big druggy and he was always hallucinating and wrote it down on paper. he got lucky with the twin tower shit. lmao yesterday i almost got hit by a car it was literally a centimeter away from hitting me, so i acted as if it did and i layed down in the middle of the intersection i almost died, rofl. well me and krystina are going back out again, and im pretty happy about it, i dont know its just after this im not aodating no more. ive made up my mind and its not gunna happen no more... meag and i we're okay again we had a disagreement but we're cool, i think.. i love you meag<3333. bestfriends no matter what. hm, i love kelly osbourne. :x. ehh well ive spoken enough tonight i have a party where there is going to be a lot of alcohol and drinking games :] fun stuff, i gotta go get my pants now, later<3 chris i love krystina<333 meag i love you no matter what and you'll always be my bestfriend<3333 steff, you rock you so funny<333 ilu myra the best sexy :x <333 ilu STEPH you are the sexiest/funniest/fattest jew, and i love you :D <3333 [dont take that offensively] YOU ROCK THE FOOD COURT<3 "everyones looking for someone to tell em what to do to tell em waht to say to tell em how to act and think untill the whole entire world is all like them" greg gaffin "id like to live beneath the dirt, where id be free from push and shove, like all those swarming up above."-phish "don't you ever wonder if you took a left instead of taking a right, you could be somebody different" d M B "take your kid; place it on a block with the throat turned upward, so that it may be easier for you to cut it; be ready with your knife, and cut the throat at a single stroke; pronouncing the name of the Spirit whom you wish to invoke."- charles manson kill me

forget me its that simple. [30 May 2002|10:54pm] [ mood | confused ] long time no update... eh iunno know i wanna do, becuz like i dont want to aodate no more, and then krystina IMed me last night and was like if you still have the idea of us goingout th answer is yes, so im kind of "confuggled" by that shit, maybe ill try it one more time and if it fucks up again its over and i wont aodate no more.. my tongue is healed and shit and so its all good, today was my cousins confirmation, i was the sponsor. i fell asleep and i had to dye my hair back to blonde :\ but imma dyeit again. duno what colors but oh well. i like my new layout btw, its a great book i recommend u guys readin it... hum, well imma go chat with meag now<33 later. -chris MEAG ROX i love you<333 kill me

im for you to use, broken and bruised [28 May 2002|02:22am] I'm Midtown! Which one of Mandie's favorite bands are you? Take the "How immature are you?" Test created by sami Make an Ass of Yourself. quiz by Sol rofl, i think everyone would agree also i love you meag<333 bestfriend me

back for the first time [27 May 2002|07:24pm] [ mood | sore ] howdy. hahah yeah im sore. i got 2 piercings i got my tongue for the second time and my eyebrow fun stuff. and on saturday i went to an open house and drank and smoked and i did shrooms for the first time... crazy shit. ima do it again sometime... i miss krystina as if ya'll didnt know we broke up and shit but i asked her back out today,so i'm just waiting for an answer... lj is gay as fuck i hate it, so dont be suprised if i dont post for a long long time :/ cuz lj sux. last night i was trippin [on acid] :D fuuunnnnn stttuufffff....i love my life... well um yeah im leaving now. to find a partyto go to or something... igot a new aim btw; THRoW FeTuS < hit that shit up... later<333 i still love krystina<33 fear in me, so deep it gets the best of me and in fear i fall here it comes face to face with me here i stand hold back so no one can see i feel these wounds step down it cannot break me down can i break away push me away make me fall just to see another side of me push me away u cant see what i see the other side of me fall back on me and ill be the strength i need to save me now just come face to face with me stay in place ull be the first to see me heal these wounds step down it cannot break me down can i break away push me away make me fall just to see another side of me push me away u cant see what i see the other side of me can i break away push me away make me fall just 2 see another side of me push me away make me fall just to see another side of me push me away u cant see what i see the other side of me no one can see anything on the other side of me i walk i crawl losing everything and waiting for a downfall no one can see anything on the other side of me -trust company - downfall. kill me

"drowning in my pool of sorrows... [22 May 2002|09:49pm] [ mood | frustrated ] can you imagine what i see? the wrath of all these emotions that u place inside of me. memories fade away and pictures of a happy yesterday are nothing more than sweet white lies. if i said it once than i said it a thousand times but our hearts what they wanna hear..never before something so bad felt so good and know we are killing our tomorrow we must live for today for this moment time stops and we only know eachother each kiss is a kiss of false hope but its okay. maybe i enjoy this pain if i live for these moment i will have eternal memory and never again doubt that you and i were real, these feelings so strong so wrong." this week is fucking horrible. yesterday i was beating shit with a stick and "playing" jackass, i broke my fucking phone, i went to sit own and i kinda plumped down and landed on my phone and mypen exploded into it and i broke half of the screen. and im grounded even longer now cuz i went out so far everyday and i wasnt supposed to cuz im grounded,and tomorrow is mine and krystinas 1 month, but either a)she doesnt care or b)shes not aware... i think shes back with john, that is if she even broke up with him. and that pisses me off but oh well. um i made it to the semi finals for a poetry contest and an invatation to a dinner in washington dc... pretty crazy huh? ya i would say so. i really dont know what else to say im bored. ill put some lyrics for u guys that wouldnt fucking fit in my away message.but yesterday i smoked 2 bowls with marissa and gina. it was good, i was going to today too but my dad had me working the field, in my overalls and straw hat and hay in my mouth and hair. :x right maygen? he did though, i hadda mow the lawn, weedwack the edges,put seeds on the grass, clean around the pool area for when we get ready to open it, clean my dads car, i was exhausted. well tomorrows the last day of school, and then on friday i get my eyebrow pierced :D. word2that shane. well here r those lyrics: sittin on ur ass all day thinkin about ur hangover and the party you left ur fuckin keys at and had to beg for a ride from a stranger that i never met before he acted so friendly that i had to take the ride but for some reason he resembled that guy wanted for a robbery and beatin on his kid u remind me of my stepson he chuckles with a grin what was that move that they taught in selfdefense where u block the killers knife move with some confidence the signal when ur trapped inside a moving car i wonder if hell drive real far what a day u shouldve stayed home shootin the breeze all day u should think next time before u start to play i wonder what will happen today rub ur eyes from no sleep this week tap your heels home then fall asleep sittin around looking for a fight kinda pissed off how im turnin my life upside down from insecure insecurities makin up my mind through old hypocrisy up and out of harms way down cuz i want to be there here becuz u want me not because ur caught in my stare asleep in bed you'll do something tomorrow instead. -what a day funny feeling my guts intuition doesnt know no bravery could convince u 2 more or less say no ur explanation hasnt gone over yet but ill give u one more chance 2 open up n just let go theres no easier way out of this place im claiming this lie 2 u face 2 face thats no way 4 u to treat me my dear someone u chose to lie 2 all these years there is no other title that i can find 4 us even though u can believe that this could work n bleed n breathe and be 4 us ur interpretation of my expectations caught up in ur picture frame have defined my eyes and made me turn up down n inside its gonna take a lot 2 get u 2 completely forgive me 4 letting u down im not exactly what i really was back then played along 4 so long then u saw what i really was i was wrong for so long what do i do with my other type of slum life so on 2 u delight 4 the rest of the night im urs whatever u want from every pore i give u my life -years those were by nonpoint... good stuff, and this whole week ive been talking to mayO (meaG) on the phone. fun stuff... u wanna know what i think about phone sex? i think its like your naked, but you're not and you're really in like a scubadiving suit on your laptop in your boat... :x. i love my mayo. =] "im out like a deaf child playing musical chairs" later :x -chris <33 meag<33 I LOVE YOU :D kill me

rofl... [19 May 2002|06:03pm] Grunge Puddles: tell me the first thing that comes to your mind Grunge Puddles: "Meagan makes me _____" drawbridges: horny Grunge Puddles: ROFL Grunge Puddles: shush drawbridges: :x Grunge Puddles: "Meagan is ____" drawbridges: it was the first thing that came to my head drawbridges: sexy Grunge Puddles: ;x Grunge Puddles: "I wanna ______ Meagan" drawbridges: lick Grunge Puddles: LMAO ;x Grunge Puddles: <33 Grunge Puddles: thats it drawbridges: <33 drawbridges: oh man i wanna do that Grunge Puddles: shhh drawbridges: "chris makes me _______" Grunge Puddles: lol Grunge Puddles: um happy drawbridges: "chris is ______" Grunge Puddles: HOTT drawbridges: "i wanna __________ chris" Grunge Puddles: FUCK Grunge Puddles: :X drawbridges: WOOOO kill me

updating for my lovely meaG :x [19 May 2002|04:41pm] [ mood | bored ] first off lemme say hi to meaG cuz she rocks and shes mine and no1 else can have her.... anyways onto the boring stuff u love to hear :D. yesterday i did nothing cuz im grounded HAH! what fun. hm, well i was online and everything and i watched the others... WORST MOTHERRFUCKING MOVIE i am so disapointed with the ending its not even funny. so dumb so all u movie critics u fucking suck. hm, well today i called krystina, haha yeah we talked for hm aproxamately 35.5 seconds. i haven't talked to her in weeks i finally make an effort to try and talk to her because i careand i miss her and she cant talk, i thnk imma just break it off cuz its going nowhere and it sucks. i mean ive wanted it for so long and i finally got it and i dont want it no more... i really do love her and i care about her, but im not gunna be in a relationship where i get to talk to her atleast 2 times a month, but im going to give it until the 23th, 1 month if its still not working out its over. im not gunna put up with it, as much as i still wanna be with her i can't. it takes 2 in a relationship not 1. so if you're reading this krystina, it's time for you to shape up, and get your act together cuz im not gunna be around much longer if this is how its gunna be. eh well enough of that. i actually got off being grounded next weekend, but i cant hang out during this week. and besides this week is memorial day weekend foolio. i got thursday - tuesday off.. what what. well, um steff avril lavigne is mine not yours bitch. <^> AVRIL LAVIGNE + MICHELLE BRANCH = FUCKING SEXY ASSSSSSSSSSS ALLLLLLLL HELLL. :D two 17 year olds with none other than moi. :] well im off, to go fuck meaG up the ass... nah but first i gotta say a few things, meaG: we've been drifting lately and we've been through so much, im almost positive we can fix this sooner or later, because theres nothing more in this world that i want more than to be your friend. we have the best convesations and everything and someday i hope to meet you.we've been through betrayal, losing trust and yet we're still friends. and you're there for me when i need you, and im always here for u when u need me.. i love you bestfriends no matter what<333 -chris meaG<3333 kill me

ugh. [18 May 2002|04:57pm] [ mood | enraged ] i hate my dad i really do.... last night i took ritilin... i didnt "take" it, i crushed it up and snorted it, more of an affect, then i took a caffiene pill then i drank like 10 beers. then i find out that my ride left and my dad has to come pick me up and i wasnt even at the mall when he came i was some place else iunno and then i got to the mall 15 minutes after and i was stumbling to the car and my dad is screaming at me and everything and i fell alseep and i woke up when i got home and i threw up from 11 - 3am. i couldnt sleep i felt like shit. and of all nights my dad decides to be a real parent and care about it like this is thefirst time it ever happened. fucking scumbag. i hate him, then he laughed in my face and told me to go sleep it off. iam so fucking infuriated with him right now, i hate him i hope he dies, and he best hope he doesnt say anything to me or look at me the wrong way or there will be fucking hell to pay because i am sober, and im pissed off more than i have ever been before.. he grounded me for 3 weeks and next week he promised i could to go to the city to get my eyebrow pierced, and if he thinks for one minute im going to not take the train to the city and sit home and consume time by being on aol hes dead fucking wrong, and then the next day i have a party, so he can kiss my white motherfucking ass, and yes its white. and im going out tonight and maybe ill sleep out hell i wont come back till tomorrow night. just to piss him off... motherfucking scumbag...im leaving but first im gonna put these lyrics here, it kinda explains things: "All you punkers with your No Future dreams Follow Johnny Rotten and All our present beliefs Following society be what They want you to be Drunk and Quiet "There's No Future for me" IMPATIENCE with society BE WHAT they want you to be IMPATIENCE "there is No Future here" "I'm not lazy I just don't care" Of course there is no future when You make sure there is none Impatience "time is wasting, There is No Future to be won" If you truly don't care, then why talk No Future Excuses hang like a noose "I've given up I just don't care" Of course you'll bring no change When you sit home on your couch We need to stand up and fight Bring our future to a start We can change things just as long as we take the time Generations, generations, generations They're not they same" there u go... au revoir... meag- thx for listening<3333 i love you krystina<33333 i love you kill me

lucy is such a comedian [12 May 2002|10:42pm] drawbridges: i just posted our convo in my journal. how do u feel about this freaky luce: :o freaky luce: *scrolls to see if i said anything embarrassing* freaky luce: lol freaky luce: nah w/e drawbridges: rofl. freaky luce: oh shit freaky luce: u got the ugly trail PART freaky luce: LOLOLOL drawbridges: yea freaky luce: your lj= drawbridges: /~dumbfucker freaky luce: lololol freaky luce: < comedian freaky luce: rofl drawbridges: ya drawbridges: ;x freaky luce: i think u should do the sombrero penis thing this summer freaky luce: get all the chicks freaky luce: aww yeahhhhh! drawbridges: no theyd see my fat drawbridges: n be like drawbridges: OOOO YO QERO TACO BELL drawbridges: YA MANG freaky luce: LOLOLOL freaky luce: i was thinkin they'd more like want to take a peek under the sombrero drawbridges: nah drawbridges: theyd put uh some borrito in my mouth drawbridges: then maybe take a peek freaky luce: LOLOLOL freaky luce: well at least u'd get a burrito freaky luce: :D freaky luce: damn you drawbridges: MY DAD IS SINGING EMINEM freaky luce: list me as a friend freaky luce: so i can comment freaky luce: LOLOL freaky luce: TWO TRAILER PARK GIRLS GO ROUND THE OUTSIDE freaky luce: ROUND THE OUTSIDE! drawbridges: krock plays it drawbridges: im like wtf freaky luce: rofl freaky luce: ya freaky luce: he was on snl yesterday drawbridges: well i was too busy getting drunk and being taken advantage of in places i didnt wanna be taken advantage of by people i didnt wanna be taken advantaged by freaky luce: har har har drawbridges: do u like michelle branch freaky luce: a little freaky luce: like freaky luce: i like her song freaky luce: everywhere drawbridges: do u think shes hot drawbridges: WHAT ALL U WANTED IS SO MUCH BETTER freaky luce: lol freaky luce: i liked everywhere better drawbridges: do u wanna lick her clitouris freaky luce: all u wanted isn't bad either freaky luce: LOL freaky luce: nah freaky luce: i probably would... drawbridges: lol i do freaky luce: IF I SWUNG THAT WAY drawbridges: shes 17 drawbridges: its not illegal yet drawbridges: ;] drawbridges: she looks my teacher drawbridges: so everyday i come in drawbridges: im like IF U WANT TO drawbridges: I CAN SAVE YOU drawbridges: I CAN TAKE U AWAY FROM HERE drawbridges: but i love michelle branch drawbridges: I AM drawbridges: THE MASTER OF THE CLITOURIS freaky luce: LOLOLOL freaky luce: every time u see her freaky luce: u go freaky luce: BOING freaky luce: rofl freaky luce: har har har drawbridges: no no not my teacher drawbridges: its illegal drawbridges: =/ drawbridges: my boing will be boinged by some jail cell person named bubba freaky luce: lol i know freaky luce: i was talking about michelle freaky luce: ROFLLLLLLL drawbridges: OH freaky luce: BUBBA drawbridges: THEN YEAH THATS OKAY freaky luce: u better move quick drawbridges: i gotta poster of michelle freaky luce: next year itll be illega freaky luce: l drawbridges: right by my bed freaky luce: LOL freaky luce: aww freaky luce: brb drawbridges: ok drawbridges: BRB 2 freaky luce: k im back drawbridges: back drawbridges: have uever heard of the band drawbridges: yellowcard? freaky luce: wb punk freaky luce: nope drawbridges: o they r good they did a cover of everywhere by michelle bramcj drawbridges: branch freaky luce: lol freaky luce: any band is good to u if they do a cover of michelle branch freaky luce: :x drawbridges: rofl no thefirst song i ever heard by them was drawbridges: starstruck freaky luce: lol oh freaky luce: jeff jeff jeff drawbridges: morpheus is fucking gay drawbridges: lucy lucy lucy freaky luce: yes so use kazaa freaky luce: im watching deep blue sea and samuel l jakcson is about to get eaten freaky luce: hahaha drawbridges: i get that movie drawbridges: and the one drawbridges: with ll cool j drawbridges: i get those 2 mixed up freaky luce: LOL freaky luce: its the same one freaky luce: dope drawbridges: oh drawbridges: :x freaky luce: ll cool j is the cook freaky luce: in it drawbridges: i knew that i was just testing you freaky luce: and he's like "the black guy is always the first to die!" freaky luce: lol freaky luce: uh huh drawbridges: CUZ YOUR EVERYWHERE TO MEEEE freaky luce: when i sleep you're always there freaky luce: and when i wake you're never there freaky luce: whoa deep lyrics freaky luce: ;x drawbridges: SING IT LUCY freaky luce: i can play both her songs on guitar freaky luce: :x drawbridges: so u want a fucking pretzel? woop de doo u still suck drawbridges: fucker drawbridges: ;x freaky luce: lol drawbridges: im kidding i hope that didnt hurt u freaky luce: hell yeah i want a pretzel freaky luce: lol not at all drawbridges: i dont have 1 freaky luce: :[ freaky luce: now that hurts freaky luce: psht drawbridges: oh im sorry. drawbridges: ill buy u 1 freaky luce: k ;D freaky luce: with mustard! freaky luce: lol ;x drawbridges: eck freaky luce: not eck! drawbridges: yes eck! freaky luce: not uh! freaky luce: they're good w/ mustard freaky luce: esp. the nyc street vendor ones freaky luce: ;9 drawbridges: i hate mustard freaky luce: it hates u too drawbridges: good freaky luce: k drawbridges: o right drawbridges: whats your lj name freaky luce: ~luciez drawbridges: o thats leet drawbridges: "z" freaky luce: rofl freaky luce: i got it freaky luce: a long time ago freaky luce: so shush it freaky luce: and shove it freaky luce: up your hairy ass freaky luce: :x drawbridges: when the "z" thing was in freaky luce: lol sure drawbridges: BITE THE CURB freaky luce: lovely drawbridges: BITE THE SHOVEL drawbridges: oh man lucy i gotta go =/ freaky luce: aww freaky luce: ;[ drawbridges: departure is such sweet sorrow. freaky luce: i know freaky luce: *SOBSSSS* freaky luce: k over it freaky luce: bye jeff! freaky luce: good night drawbridges: rofl its ok freaky luce: sleep tight drawbridges: ill be on tomorrow freaky luce: and dont let the bed bugs bite!@ freaky luce: k i might ;x drawbridges: eck i hate bugs drawbridges: i have anthrax freaky luce: :o drawbridges: night<3 freaky luce: byeee<33333 kill me

well hes a chick magnet if ya know what i mean [12 May 2002|09:54pm] [ mood | amused ] Stare into my eyes Rake your nails across my skin I know the reason embers of you scatter as you breathe [embers of you scatter when] The life you knew disappears In its wake with one skin [in its wake your standing in] As paper I cut your life [and in paper i cut your life] Follow the outline that you traced Embers of you scatter when] The life you knew disappears In its wake you stand with one skin that you do not own [in its wake your standing in.. as these waves break, there is things i'll miss, things i miss, and i'm feeling fake, with my whole life on your lips] The sky is closed today So here i sit, waiting For a word that is hidden in Clouds To take me back from here [I'm hoping that this fever breaks when this smile spites my face] Somewhere Take me back To a place I will not Feel as you Somewhere Anywhere Far away from the offline of you -the royal crown vs. blue duchess Creation imperfect Do you defy this? Could you and your swollen ego fit into my master plan for failure? I take the shame to heart and lock it away in a place thats sees not the light of day I will use it when i see your face again [your head in your hands and this is my cue, if three words could heal you i would only speak two, your eyelids grow heavy and this is my cue, If three words could heal you i'd only speak two] How could you think after all you put me through and all you put on my shoulders that i would answer your cries for help? [How could you think after all you put me through and all you put on my shoulders that i would answer your cry for help?] Unleash the rage built up (in my throat) Show how you hurt me and hopefully you see you have the power to destroy my will to live -cherry kiss [This is the end result of so many meetings at late night dinners with no one eating, we sit in corners and sip burnt coffee, count the tiles up on the ceiling, lets skip the pretense and cut straight to dying, just dont beg me to keep your eyes from crying, you said so much without even parting your lips, its past 3am and i'm still far from sleep, and this is a habit i cant break, you're my only company, i'm skipping stones down a suburban street, street lights flicker like this match in my hand, it was begging to strike, I keep repeating but this payphone tele stopped receiving, flat out of change now and i'm sure you won't accept the charges, its all the same because by morning i'll be halfway to colarado, or someplace like that, she keeps on asking “do you think it hurts much to die?“ its hurting so much more to stay alive now, shes gonna find out how much it hurts to die she laced her perfume up with death, i feel it in my lungs, so i'll pull in the deepest breath and drop my head] -chloroform perfume The sound of my breath flutters past your ear Tearing down fear Grasp your heart strings by their frayed ends to choke down the feeling left inside The sands of time slide down your cheek in the form of liquefied dreams Each one stands for more than the next You give yourself to all but you To take all you had and give all thats left How could you have been so blind? The shallow waters that you come upon, show how empty your life truly is You look into the vast nothingness to see something that is not there You try to discern where to go from here You try to make sense of this confusion that you have inside (your heart) And how you can get there. [this van is on a one way trip we'll rock it straight to hell, our Crue is Motley and our theatres filled with pain, across the creek and into your home, be there by eight because she doesn't want you any other way] But by a force unknown (held back) Deep inside you, your veins tied in knots Bind your blistering hands To keep you in this world forsaken As you leave your wilting soul behind. -capeside rock Emotionless grey skies bleed somber dreams of sorrow Blackened unseen heart tears a virgins godlike innocence from its pristine palace Paint sarcastic smiles upon new wounds Tears of misery stain scar filled minds Hatred new like tomorrow flows from bitter memories Purity now embraced by sinful ideals why Lifeless tomb rests weary with prowling peering eyes Silence falls upon deaf ears covered by night Alone in thought, shaking Biting tongues of lead at unfit moments Screaming disbelief with no faith in site [and her disgust has no borders, no limits to strive for, she bends and breaks to the rules set by the weak] She's finally seen she's a beautiful girl with a smile so grand she could stop the world Stolen her skin he sews her mouth shut, means nothing to him, her screams just die out As she cries out here voice dies out As she cries out her voice dies out Love once inside her heart, lay in my hands Was it asked for? Was it implied? What could have been done? Inside her mind dies. -take her to the music store Darkness chokes my emotions Your breath numbs my soul Stand with me, by my side Take my hand and lead the way Out from the shadows and into the real world Show me how to live a life owned by regret My blood runs cold, lifeless in shame Now is the time, to right the wrong Inside my veins, poison words lie Within a mind as guilty as yours take what is left inside of me I've no use for it Stained with thoughts uncaring, open and let me in [it spun my head when i thought you were talking to me, i guess i'm just a fool for thinking your thinking of me, and now, I press my fist to the pillows wishing it was your teeth] Show your world, deceit Let me live as you, Need not to feel Emotions rain down Drowned by innocence, thoughts escape me Harsh words spit blindly and open paths of life Take all that is me, a lifeless somber soul Curse the day you wake as solace sets in Darkness chokes my emotions Your breath numbs my soul Stand with me, by my side Take my hand, and lead the way Out from the shadows and into my world [My soul is not for you to own] I will not live life to see your face anymore. -the switch I felt you slip away Far away from me Further from me You seem to drift far away I caught myself wishing you back, as i fight to catch you Anger wells inside me I see me, frowning, in your eyes [i see the fear in you where noone should ever be, i find myself striving to catch you from.. this will hurt me less and less everytime until i feel nothing] I see my reflection and the pain scripted across my face, set in stone Anger wells inside of me I see me, frowning in your eyes Far away from me Further from me You seem to drift far away I caught myself wishing you back as i strive for you [she said “its not that i dont love you anymore, but it would be much more accurate to say that i never loved you in the first place] I put the fear in you where noone should ever be Nothing to me Everything to you Nothing to me Everything to you. -reflections In a world of despair, our lives will end Some without warning, while others die by design Under watchful eyes, we tread on evil ground, with jaded eyes around us each step is scrutinized [in the pouring rain, we speed this car, i try so hard, wish i was more prepared for this time, you shouldn't have passed before me] In this life we lead, a choice will be made Where we go from here, when our time is done At the gates of heavan, angels stare at us May they lead you home to where you'll live in peace? You take without warning [i'll shut myself up and black out the windows] As we sit and wait [its best to consider me dead as well] Breath in take a life [i'm hoping in time i'll get over] Breath out, cleanse your soul [i might be fine when i get older..no way] You took her life I gave you mine, to ease the pain of my soul, to show you how much shes meant to me I will fight for our lives and take them to our graves In a world of despair, our lives will end Some with out warning, while others die by design Under watchful eyes we tread on evil ground, with jaded eyes around us, each step is scrutinized I will defy you The evil from above Open my mind Let you in I will not forgive the sins you made You took her life from me. -eulogy for an angel Here you stand seething with guilt Silence only justifies the act of cowardice. The look stapled on your face cries out for forgiveness The one thing that i cannot give I can give you freedom from your guilt, with a flick of my wrist, onto yours I can give you piece of mind with a forced smile I can give you death with the look apon my sullen face [this is your freedon in a life of fallacy, with no last kiss and no regrets, you dont deserve goodbye, this is your freedon in a life of fallacy with no last kiss and no goodbye] Here you stand seething with guilt Silence only justifies the act of cowardice With a short story, the one you add to daily, you are the tragic loss No story book ending for the fairy tale of you Just the one composed with blood taken from your pen that you hold in your lifeless hand Cry for you Shed tears Mourn, Wish The End -short stories with tragic endings i love from autumn to ashes... hm, well today FUCKING SUCKS!. i hate mothers day. i ended up at the cemetary after 100 times saying i wasnt going to go, but i did and layed down some roses. and placed a stone on top of her grave. then i went to visit jesse's grave said a prayer and what not, then i went to the other cemetary and put flowers downon my cousins grave... i hate this. yesterday was the 6 month anniversary of their death.... :/ sucks.... hm well then my uncle was like "chris u wanna come with christine, me and nicole to see the new guy" i was like "i guess" i needed something to do. besidesi didnt feel like being online at the time. so ya, the movie wasn't too bad but it wasnt great. lucy is fucking funny.... here is our convo. drawbridges: freaky luce y u so freaky luce freaky luce: lololol freaky luce: do u come up with a new one every time? freaky luce: ;x drawbridges: rofl ya freaky luce: lots of time= freaky luce: ;x drawbridges: no it just like pops into my head drawbridges: like i got these ideas drawbridges: they just pop into my head freaky luce: lol so you're sayin you're some kinda genius with these things, eh? freaky luce: ;x drawbridges: yea basically drawbridges: cuz im drawbridges: finger lickin crackalackin good freaky luce: you know it drawbridges: ya n im chillin like a villian wit bob dillain on penesillan eatin chickin thats really fillin drawbridges: yeah shane freaky luce: wow man you're like lyricist2theMAX freaky luce: :x drawbridges: ya dax b 2ru freaky luce drawbridges: i bustin dese rhymes lyk whoa drawbridges: ;x drawbridges: LYK HOTCAKEZ FOOLIO drawbridges: god damn i needa stuf drawbridges: stfu drawbridges: ^ freaky luce: LOL freaky luce: stuf jeff just stuf! drawbridges: <^> freaky luce: stuf'd turkey freaky luce: gobble gobble freaky luce: :x freaky luce: k ima stop now drawbridges: it was a typo the next typo u make imma harass u drawbridges: imma be drawbridges: freaky juce drawbridges: alright drawbridges: u remember that. freaky luce: LOL freaky luce: okie freaky luce: i'll be waiting freaky luce: punk freaky luce: getcho harrass on drawbridges: 4 shizzle drawbridges: i saw the new guy drawbridges: i thought of u. freaky luce: :o freaky luce: i wanna see that drawbridges: gEEky luce freaky luce: why? drawbridges: ^ freaky luce: LOL freaky luce: <^> drawbridges: people will pull down your pants and duct tape u to a chair and put plastic boobs on u drawbridges: GEEK! freaky luce: rofl freaky luce: I DONT NEED PLASTIC BOOBS freaky luce: SO PSSSSSHT ON YOU drawbridges: ya u do drawbridges: flat= freaky luce: :O freaky luce: *slaps you* freaky luce: PSHT drawbridges: what was that 4 drawbridges: ;/ drawbridges: Y U GOTTA HIT 4 freaky luce: to wake u up! freaky luce: I SHOULDA TITSLAPPED U freaky luce: PSHT freaky luce: :x drawbridges: psh drawbridges: with what tits= freaky luce: :OOOOOO freaky luce: UR JUST JEALOUS freaky luce: :x drawbridges: lol im just joshin with ya freaky luce ilu :x <3 freaky luce: lol drawbridges: JEALOUS drawbridges: YAAAA OKAY freaky luce: LOL U KNOW U WANT BOOBIES drawbridges: DOULBE D drawbridges: BITCH PLZ freaky luce: SO U CAN PLAY WITH THEM ALL DAY freaky luce: LOL freaky luce: ROFL drawbridges: i get black eyes every day drawbridges: when i gotta run drawbridges: i get smacked in the face drawbridges: so dont tell me drawbridges: im jealous freaky luce: ROFL freaky luce: lmao freaky luce: aaww poor jeffy drawbridges: rofl im sittin here trying not to laugh this is your fault freaky luce: NO freaky luce: ITS YOUR GENES FAULt freaky luce: U GOT MAN BOOBIES freaky luce: lolololol freaky luce: man boobies are funny :x drawbridges: WELL U GOT A HAPPY TRAI drawbridges: L drawbridges: U HAIRY WOMAN freaky luce: LOLOLOL freaky luce: SHH U KNOW U THINK ITS SEXY drawbridges: NO drawbridges: NOTWHEN I CHOKE ON THE HAIR freaky luce: YO MOMMA freaky luce: U'D NEVER GET THAT CLOSE freaky luce: :x freaky luce: lol freaky luce signed off at 9:36:20 PM. freaky luce signed on at 9:36:41 PM. drawbridges: brb freaky luce: lol k Auto response from drawbridges: LUCY HAS A HAPPY TRAIL HAIRY APE freaky luce: ROFl drawbridges: i dont even know why its called a happy trail 4 u drawbridges: it should be a fucking ugly trail freaky luce: osirujfdsafy98234 freaky luce: UR GOIN DOWN PUNk freaky luce: DOWNNNNNN drawbridges: oh what u gunna do drawbridges: emo drawbridges: kid freaky luce: IMA TRIM MY "UGLY TRAIL" freaky luce: AND GLUE IT freaky luce: TO YOUR FACE drawbridges: rofl. drawbridges: aw its okay cheer up emo kid<3 dont be sad cuz u have a happy trail freaky luce: lolol freaky luce: fine freaky luce: as long as u like my happy trail then its all good drawbridges: just trim it once n awhile and we're cool freaky luce: lol k i promise freaky luce: i wont let it get too outta hand drawbridges: rofl ok drawbridges: then i suggest go trim it now -> freaky luce: :O freaky luce: but i just did yesterday! freaky luce: it must be grown fastt freaky luce: :[ drawbridges: yea drawbridges: ;[ drawbridges: lmaolmao drawbridges: check this out drawbridges: connect with me freaky luce wants to directly connect. freaky luce: :/ freaky luce: not workin freaky luce cancels request; no connection was made. drawbridges: ill send it through aol freaky luce: lol k freaky luce: iucylicious= drawbridges: ygm freaky luce: ROFL freaky luce: ROFL drawbridges: =x freaky luce: SOMBRERO PENISSSSSSSS freaky luce: rofl drawbridges: rofl! freaky luce: if i had a penis freaky luce: i'd wanna try that freaky luce: sometime freaky luce: lololol drawbridges: roflrofl drawbridges: aww naw hell naw boy drawbridges: WELLLLL HES A CHICK MAGNET IF YA KNOW WHAT I MEAN freaky luce: :D freaky luce: mxpx! drawbridges: ya drawbridges: rock freaky luce: DAMN JEFF freaky luce: YOU ARE HELLA freaky luce: SHORT freaky luce: YO freaky luce: 4'11" freaky luce: LOLOL freaky luce: :x drawbridges: that was drawbridges: kind of out of topic drawbridges: but alright drawbridges: what made u say this freaky luce: lol yah i was just lookin at your AIM thing rofl... then we got genius meag over here: eternal goodbyes: this eternal goodbyes: jolly rancher chew eternal goodbyes: thing eternal goodbyes: is eternal goodbyes: quite chewy drawbridges: well shit meag drawbridges: its right in the name drawbridges: of course it'll be chewy well, thats all for now, im out... to talk to my comedian and genius<3:x me

everything is turning gray. [11 May 2002|11:46am] [ mood | annoyed ] eck, first off i wanna start off by apologizing to any1 i was mean to last night.. i was rollin and i took a caffiene pill and i felt really sick + paranoid. and i got busted by the cops smoking weed with my friend chris. but we just had finished and we were smoking a blunt, so they were like empty out your pockets and shit so i did and i had 2 20 sacs on me and they were like is htis yours? i was like no my friend left it here and told me he was coming back and for me to hold it. and they were like what were u doing we werel ike smoking a cigarette and hes like do u always squat when u smoke and i was like no, i dropped something and i was looking for it. and they were like oh do u have id? and me and chris are like what fucking 15 year old carries around id? and hes like lemme see your school ID so we're like uh okay so i showed him and hes like okay. this is just a warning dont let me catch u again. we were like uh okay. so then it was around 10 and i felt so sick so i called for a ride home and my dad came and picked me up and i got home and threw up 3 times and then i got online for some reason i dont even know why. and i talked to myra for a little bit then i left and then kt imed me and i went off on her. so my apology... i feel better today though, and today i have a party to go to, and i have my cousins communion too in like an hour, so i have to go and get ready.... later -chris i love krystina<33 "so don't apologize. i hope you choke and die. search your cell for something with which to hang yourself. they say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven but they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has got to hell. everyone's caught on to everything you do. and i can't let you, let me down again. so, is that what you call a getaway? tell me what you got away with. cause ive seen more spine on jellyfish... and ive seen more guts on eleven-year-old kids. Have another drink and drive yourself home. i hope there's ice on all the roads. and you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt, and again when your head goes through the windshield. and is that what you call tact? you're about as subtle as a brick in the small of my back. so let's end this call, and end this conversation... i can't let you let me down again" me

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